Great Quote

" Live with intention. Walk to the edge. Listen hard. Practice wellness. Play with abandon. Laugh. Choose with no regret. Appreciate your friends. Continue to learn. Do what you love. Live as if this is all there is. " Mary Anne Radmacher

What makes a Mother??

I've been visiting a website that has info on miscarrages and a forum where I can talk to other moms who are going through the same things. One posted the following and gave me permission to post it here.

What Makes a Mother??

I thought of you and closed my eyes and prayed to God today.
I asked what makes a mother, and i know i heard him say.

A mother has a baby, this we know is true.
But God can you be a mother when your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can, he replied with confidence in his voice.
I give many women babies but when they leave its not there choice.

I just dont understand this God, I want my baby here.
He took a breath and cleared his throat, and then I saw a tear,

I wish I could show you, what your child is doing today.
I wish you could see your child smile, with other children and say...

"we go on earth to learn our lessons, of love life and fear.
My mummy loved me so very much, I got to come straight here.

I feel so lucky to have a mum, who had so much love for me.
I learnt my lessons very quickly, my mummy set me free,

I miss my mummy oh so much I visit her each day,
When she goes to sleep, on her pillows there I lay,

I stroke her hair I kiss her cheek. I whisper in her ear,
Mummy dont be sad today. Im your baby and i'm here"

So you see dear sweet one, your children are okay,
Your babies are in my home and this is where they will stay.

They will wait for you with me, untill your lessons are through.
And on the day that you'll come home, they'll be at the gates for you.

So you see what makes a mother its the feeling in your heart.
It's the one you had so much of, right from the very start.

Though some on earth may not realise, until there time is done,
Remember all the love you have, and know your a special

..... MUM.....

Day 8

Things are getting a little better every day. Not so much physical pain anymore (except when I put my jeans on grrr). Emotionally getting better every day. Looking to the future. Dreaming of our future.

Recovering...

Hi Everyone,

I thought I'd explain my ticker below. I know some of you might not like the theology, but it gives me a peace. Sunday Feb 18 I miscarried. Our baby was 8 weeks and 4 days. It's one of those situations that we will never know why but have to have faith that it was apart of God's plain for our little one's life. It ended in emergency surgery which I am home recovering today.

I am so thrilled for my friend Gwyn. Our due dates were about a week apart. As sad as I am over my loss I'm equally excited for the little life she is carrying. I will enjoy watching he or she grow & hopefully I will have a baby only a few months younger.

Please don't feel sad or sorry by this post. Just pray that my body recovers quickly and we can try again. I will always hold our little R.W. (we named our baby after the boys name we had picked Rhys William and since we didn't know the sex we thought R.W. fit!) close to my heart and never forget the show time my baby was with me.

Sorry Everyone

Hi everyone,

For some weird reason I've only been able to log on through posting a comment on another blog. Thanks to Gwyn for letting everyone know I was having trouble. I'm also going through a very difficult time right now, so please pray for me. Heath problems. Congrats to my friend Gwyn for the new baby. I look forward to you moving up here and seeing your kids grow! Just remember the canadian heath system is way different than the american. No fancy digs to have your baby. Also you'll find the check ups way different. But at least in the end you won't have to pay for it. I'm going to sign off for now.

Ceri forgot her password....

Okay, Ceri has not updated because she forgot her password.... So I am posting on here to let y'all know that she will be back because I found her login info from when I did some work on here for her :)